Monday, October 17, 2011

Turnstile conversations

Our mind works in peculiar ways. How often have we gone from being extremely happy to being anxious in just a few hours. Life works in peculiar ways. I think we have all been in situations in everyday life, where we are perhaps super excited to go to a movie and feeling extremely upbeat. We go to the theatre with excitement and then when we don’t get tickets ,go from being upbeat and excited to rather cranky and upset .Some of us show disappointment in being irritable to others around us and some being worrisome and anxious.
We cannot deny disappointment is a part of our life. Big or small we have them everyday. My recent experience with my family's move, I had a rather large ego that my friends in my old town were my big support system. I realized they helped me through some rough situations, but life was never perfect. They let me down a bunch of times, but they were still friends I counted on as family. I left thinking they would never forget me and I would stay in touch forever. Its been 8 weeks since our big move and none of them have returned my emails or phone calls. It was a hit to my ego that they didn’t care as much to stay in touch in just a few weeks. So the same people I remembered with such pride as being part of my life are now being forced to be a distant memory and people who are acting rather like strangers .
If I choose to I can remember them with the resentment that I was disappointed with how things changed between us, but they were a big part of my life a few months earlier for all the good reasons. I think I should choose not change that emotion about them and not let my ego take over next time. I can be replaced in their life and same applies to them in mine when new friends and new relationships build.
All of us have noticed the turnstile in the stations or amusement parks. They are also called the baffle gates. I would like to have one in my mind for the impressions we make of people. Like the turnstile only allows one person at a time, if we have a good impression about somebody , fight to keep it unchanged as long as we can.