Thursday, September 18, 2008

Verge of exhaustion

I don't realise sometimes that I have lost the art of relaxing. I just cannot seem to do it anymore. I try and everytime I fail sooner or later either its because I have a screaming child or my husband needing something or one of the dog's getting into trouble. It almost seems impossible anymore . I am frustrated and usually in a rather grouchy mood because my moment of tranquility was ruined. I wish I could yell and scream as loud as I can but I have to settle down for grumbling under my breath because I have my kids watching my every move. I am more frustrated because I cannot express the way I feel anymore or even let out a loud scream to cleanse my system.
Perhaps I have definitely lost the art of relaxing.I cannot sit through a movie anymore. I had rather just fast forward it and watch the parts I am interested in and then get on with my life. I have definitely lost the art of relaxing.I try so hard to tell myself not to read in the bathroom but I think thats the only place where I have some sanity so I grab a book and I can perhaps skim over a couple of pages when I realise I have something cooking on the stove. I have definitely lost the art of relaxing.
I am in the verge of exhaustion and my mind and body is crying to tell me that I need to slow down and is crying to get a break . Life sure has spinned out of control with so many things happening ,I definitely have to tell myself its important to relax too in order to be productive.Somebody tell me how I can relax. I am beginning to understand now that I can no longer do "nothing" .

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

STOP!! Step on the brakes ! in pursuit of slowness

Our day starts out in a rather normal speed.I would say about 35 mph.As the clock ticks 6:30 AM , the momentum changes.By 6:30AM I finish drinking coffee and packing the kids' lunch.Now the whole day is ahead of us and we have to change gears to get everything done by the end of the day. The plan is laid out and first and foremost we have to get the kids up and get them ready for school,feed the dogs ,pack our lunch ,finish shower and get out of the door at 7:45 .If we clock the speed when we walk out to our car I can see we are easily clocking at 60 mph.
Heard an interesting talk by Carl Honore a british journalist.He has written about how he is struggling to slow down in his life.Its a simple book but every word of it is like walking through your own life. All households with dual careers go through that for sure. Its rather amazing how he can tell us exactly where we can slow down if we wished and how we are leading a rather fast paced life and degenerating the quality of life.
Nowadays we strive on structure.With my experience I can tell I need to have a schedule to make sure things are getting done for the entire family. Even the dogs know when they need to be fed.They are fed at the same time everyday.Its interesting how our mind and body get so adjusted to schedule.Its tough to be thrown off the schedule then I have to somehow make a quick recovery.
After listening to him talk we decided to take in easy in the weekends at the least. I sit down and drink my coffee instead of sipping on it while fixing breakfast or sorting laundry.
I can't complain about a fast paced life sometimes we need the speed to get everything we desire to be accomplished but slowing down sometimes really does feel good.